Got to the point where I’m so beyond caring, got fuck loads of work to do for tommorow, and i still can’t even be bothered to start. I’m caring less and less about my health, working stupid hours, sleeping all day, don’t even want to leave my room most days, actually most days i just don’t. My appitite is shot, going days without eating and not even noticing. I’m a completely different person to like 6 months ago, realised I’m actually only good for a fuck, just having one causual sex realtionship to another and making no attept to have more, don’t even know if i want more, not that anyone seems to want more from me, let’s be honest I’m damaged goods. For fuck sake I’m fucking somone at the minute, and giving them tips on how to get with some one else, how fucked up is that. Realised i havent seen my mum or that half of the family it all for a year, they haven’t even tried to make contact and just ignore me, I don’t even know why. My life is seriously taking a turn for the worse and the fact that by this time tommorow I’ll be done with uni for 4 months with nothing to worry about should be a blessing and yet all i can think is how awful it is going to be. I am officially a mess.